-- 27/04

In a way, parties are stupid.
I mean, girls spend hours picking out what to wear.
How to wear our hair and how to do our make-up.
We get all dolled up and spray on an excessive amout of perfum.
But for what?

By the end of the night...
Our make-up is smudged..
Hair is a mess..
The smell of alcohol and ciggarette smoke lingers around us...
We've lost our dignity.. and repsect

So why do we do it... ?

what is this world coming too?

I just read one of the most disgusting things I've ever heard of.
It was an article on yet another case of Animal Abuse.

It actually made me sick to my stomach.

　　　

I think people who abuse animals, in any way or form, is completely sick. It is fucked up and totally disgusting. What kind of malicious and mentally disturbed person gets "thrills" or any form of entertainment from seeing defenceless and beautiful animals hurt? Who would want to see that? Why would you set your viscious dog or your raging fists onto another being? You need therapy if you think that is explainable behaviour. I think if you have abused, killed or hurt an animal in any way possible, you should be severe punishment. Not jail, no you should get what you did to that poor creature, done back to you. If you make your two pitbull terriers onto a puppy and let the puppy get totally ripped up, you deserve to get two vicious dogs attacking you. You must have something seriously wrong with you if you could even think of such putrid actions.

　　　

Animal abusers - you are sick.

life is like a puzzle.

Life is like a puzzle.

　

we spend our whole lives, searching for our matching piece.

the piece that fits perfectly into place beside you.

the piece that makes your jigsaw complete.

　

I want to find my piece.

　

here i stand, at age fourteen.

wanting to fall inlove.

wanting to get married.

wanting to start my life, with my soulmate.

wanting to start a family.

buy my first home.

become a grand-mother.

grow old with the one I love.

look back on my life and smile.

and then die, after living a long and happy life.

　

people say.

People say, Dont judge a book by its cover.
But its easier said than done.

When you see someone walking down the street, you judge them. Even if you dont mean to, or want to, you sub-conciously do. Life is all about appearance, its only natural to judge someone on their outer shell.

In life, we all spend so long saying "dont judge me" and "dont label me" etc, but then we spend so much time judging people who don't fit our perception of "cool" or "normal". We spend our days saying we dont care what people think, but then we spend hours putting on make-up and doing our hair, shaving our legs and spraying fragances onto our bodies. Life is all about appearances, thats how you get what you want. How you make a statement and how you get attention.

I wish life wasn't so beauty controlled, but it is.
And all we can do is face the facts.

Life is about how you look.

But it doesnt mean that you should think you are only worthy if you are beautiful.
It means you have to work hard to get people to notice your own beauty.

Yournaturalbeauty.

5.04.09

life is all about pretending.

i am not perfect.

i am imperfect.

i dont wake up looking good.

i dont have the perfect body.

i probably have cellulite.

i love reading.

i think too much.

i want to fall in love.

i fall for guys easily.

i like drinking.

i cannot stand liars.

i love doing my hair and make-up.

i have dreams.

i set myself goals.

i dont like to think about negative things.

i dont like people watching me write.

i want to find someone who wants to know everything about me.

i like asking questions.

i love writing,

i am selfless.

i feel like im always fixing other peoples problems.

i want someone to be interested in me, and what i have to say.

i cry in movies, alot.

i wish my family was closer.

i believe in myself.

i think i am talented.

　　　　

Im sick of pretending.

5/04

we all have stories to tell.

we have all had good, bad and sad experiences.

some we regret, some we will never forget.

all in all, we cannot take them back.

all we must do is learn from the bad, and remeber the good.