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As of today;

Life is gooooood!

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I want to believe that you care.

I want to believe that you used to care.

I want to believe that you ever cared.

I want to believe.

Make me believe.

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Sometimes I just give up on guys.
I really do.

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Im not going to be sick this weekend.

Its a promise and a goal!

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I think I've actually given up completely on you.

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All I can say is grow up!

m.

So at the mo its seems as I am in control, and I have all these choices. Pff. But really I'm not. I never really am. Because I dont try. I dont put myself out there. I dont ever put any effort in. But I do. Well I do try. Its like, hmm. Its like fishing. I am like the pro at catching the fish, but I fail at reeling them in. I can "pick the right bait, that all the fish love". I "go fishing in the right spots". And I definitly "hook the best fish". But then, its like after all of that, I have no strength left to reel it in. After all my hard work, and I end up giving up, and putting that fish back into the swim as I watch it swim away, and get caught by the next fisher, so easily. I dont really get it, because, Im confident, self-assured. I definitly have a high self esteem. So maybe that makes people think Im high mantienence. I think so high of myself, people dont even bother trying because Im just too full of myself for my own good. Huh. Thats probably it. But then what do I know?

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So on one hand, I dont care.
But then, part of me wants to care.
I want to want this.
I want to not be okay with this not happening.
So maybe I do care.

so.

So I havent really been writing much,
Probably because lately; I dont even know what to say.
I hate getting in those moods where you just want to write so much about so many diff things & its like

Where to start?

soz

So, I may not be the best with my time management, when it comes to seeing all my friends over the stretch of the holidays, but dont put all the blame on me!

yeh dfh cx

“Anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new.”

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So how did you get here under my skin?

I swore that I'd never let you back in

Should have known better in trying to let you go

Cause, here we go again.

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What went wrong in your head, to make you think that at ANYTIME family comes second?!

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it takes a very narrow-minded person to not believe.

who says you have to see something to believe it, when you've felt his almighty power?

once you experience that your life changes forever.

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how can love turn into hate, in what seems like an instant?
how can life turn into death, in a matter of seconds?
how can someone who seems so perfect turn into someone so disgusting to you, just like that.

omg, I LOVE READING!

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I have no FREAKING idea what to do!

ah!

How do I find the words to tell you
I love you
but; I dont know if I can love you anymore?